This Is It

I've got it. I think. My word for this year is:

CENTER

Since my friend passed away last fall, I assumed my word would be WHOLEHEARTED, in her honor, but it just never felt right. After much thought, I decided it was because I ran away from last year's word and lived on the fringe as much as I possibly could, hiding, wholehearted seemed too big. I needed a step in between. From failing (in my eyes) fear less to wholehearted was simply too much. But couldn't find the right thing to sum it up. Until CENTER.

I tried to connect with what it was I really needed right now, in those times my soul is very quiet. And I need to draw in and find ME again. So much of what I ran away from was because I flailed in not knowing who I was. I've entered another stage of life this year, having Sammy away for the majority of time and I have hours to fill and not a clue what to do or who I am anymore. To tap into my years gone by yoga training, I need to find my center again; draw in and balance. Find what makes me, me.

I have ideas, but less than years past and am mostly open to let it guide me. I'm not overwhelmed with it, but it feels...quiet. And good. So maybe not perfect, nor the earth shattering experiences of past years and revelations, but it's solid. And with that, I can work.

CENTER:
- The middle point of a circle or sphere, equidistant from every point on the circumference or surface
- A point, area, person, or thing that is most important or pivotal in relation to an indicated activity, interest, or condition
- A source from which something originates

(I also have a second word...TRUE. As in to myself, my family, my beliefs. As in real, genuine, reliable, accurate. I couldn't decide between the two, but thought they worked so nicely hand in hand, I'd adopt both...)


(alison moyet - more)